should have seen it coming

So, over the past couple of days that I didn't blog I came to realize something. Attempting to blog everyday was a stupid idea on my part. Not because I don't have the time or because I simply don't want to. But the fact that's always been there remains; I simply do not have a life. I have no friends and my dad doesn't allow me to do anything. He doesn't allow me to go anywhere or be involved in anything that might actually make me smile.

I think I'm just beginning to admit this to myself. Over the years I've tried to blog daily and I always wanted to blame my failure on laziness or lack of time to blog. But I've always known that those were complete bogus excuses. I just don't have a life. 

I would love to have friends and to be able to go out and experience life. Even if it's just going to the mall or to the movies or even the park. I just need to get out of this house. My dad won't let me leave. He acts like my only purpose to be on this Earth is to babysit his girlfriend's kid so that they can go out and stay gone all hours of the night and day. It just isn't right. He won't even leave food here or anything.
 
I don't want to complain so I'll just end this blog right here. All that is needed to be said is that I can't wait until I am 18.

181 days left.