getting personal

This blog is more for personal purposes. I haven't talked about this in any blog entries here because it wasn't really relevant. But today it is relevant so I thought I should blog about it a bit.

Today Brandon has court for custody of his daughter. I am so nervous because this has been a process that's been dragging on for about 6 months now. Today is the last day of the whole process (FINALLY!). Him and I never thought this day would come. It has been so stressful for him and it's put somewhat of a strain on our relationship. I am so happy that it's finally coming to an end. Something is finally coming together for us. It actually makes me hopeful that our plans may come true after all. I was beginning to think we were hoping for too much just asking to be happy because nothing was going right.

He's been in court for an hour and a half now and I'm sitting at home more nervous than I've probably ever been. I tend to ramble in my blogs when I'm nervous so if things start to not make sense, you know why. The thing I hate most about not actually being there with him is that I have absolutely no idea when he will be calling me. I have no idea how things are going there or how the judge is acting. I am completely clueless as to what is going on right now. He could call me anywhere from thirty minutes to eight hours from now. I hate this anticipation!