Dear Baby,

This is my second post for you. I haven't kept up with this blog as much as I would have liked to over the past few weeks, but that just means I have more to tell you now! I think about writing these entries all the time, but I never make myself get around to it.

So let's go all the way back to September and start from there. On September 28th, 2013 your daddy and I got married in Blue Ridge. We were married in a tiny loft inside a tiny little cabin in Blue Ridge! The name of the place was Mountain Laurel Cabin Rentals. So far, (since we haven't had you yet!), it was the happiest day of our lives. Your daddy cried as he said his vows and then when we shared our cupcakes, he shoved it in my face and up my nose! He is so silly. I hope he stills acts this goofy once you're all grown so you will get to witness what I deal with! :p I'm sure by the time you're big enough to understand, we will have gotten around to printing out the pictures (but who knows, we are bad procrastinators!).

On October 17th, 2013 we finally got to see you! I was 13 weeks pregnant and that is when we had our first ultrasound appointment. Your daddy got to see you first because of how the monitor was positioned, and he was telling me about how you were doing flips and floating all over the place in there! You were also sucking your thumb and we got a few good pictures of you. I think that is the moment it really hit your daddy that you were in there. He talks to you all the time and rubs my belly and says, "Little baby, what are you doing in there?". I can already tell he loves you so much. Words can't even begin to describe the love I feel for you already.

Two days later on October 19th, 2013 we headed up to Blue Ridge with your daddy's best friend Chris. Your daddy's mom (he still hasn't picked out her grandparent name yet!) had told us that she bought us a car. We got up there and she had bought us a Jeep Grand Cherokee! Your daddy's face lit up at the thought of having his own car again. He had to do some nifty fixing on it just so we could drive it home, but he did it. Your daddy loves tinkering with stuff and he can fix just about anything! That's one thing I love about him. I'm sure he will be that way forever.

We still don't know if you're going to be a little boy or a little girl, but we will find out on December 11th! We're planning on having a gender reveal party the following Saturday (December 14th), but we will see! I've been feeling you make little movements for the past 2 weeks. You move around a lot at night when your daddy and me are laying down for bed and he rubs on my belly and talks to you. I think you like the sound of his voice :) You also move around when we're in the car and we ride over bumps. I can't wait until I start feeling your movements really well. Right now it just feels like a little fish in my tummy lol. Your daddy gets so upset when he tries to put his hand on my belly to feel you but he can't.

You're making me gain weight now and it's making me really happy! I was starting to think you weren't going to get any bigger and I wasn't going to have a fat baby like I want :) Today I wore maternity pants for the first time and they were tight around my belly! You're going to be a big baby I'm sure. Everyone in your daddy's family is tall and big! I hope you get that gene if you're a boy.

Well little baby, I'm going to head to sleep. It's been a long past few days for your daddy and me! He is snoozing on the couch next to me and if I don't move him to the bed soon his back will be hurting in the morning! We love you so so so much.

Dear Baby,

I'm starting these posts (which I hope I will keep up with for your sake!) just so you can have a small glimpse of how life is for your daddy and I now. I want to document all the important moments and how we feel about it, so that one day we can share these special moments and feelings with you. So I guess I will recap everything that has happened so far.

On Sunday August 25, 2013 your daddy and I found out that you would be joining us in our lives! I didn't think I was pregnant, but your daddy convinced me to take a pregnancy test. Turns out, I was pregnant! :) When we first saw those two little lines show up, I was in complete shock. I didn't know what to think. Your daddy was grinning from ear to ear. I don't think I had ever seen him so happy and excited. After the initial shock wore off, I was excited too!

So now that you know when and how we found out, I would like to let you know a little more about what's happening in our lives at this time. So in case you're curious, you'll know all about who your daddy and I were before you came into the world.

Your daddy and I started dating on October 13, 2012. We moved in together May 20, 2013. Your pawpaw wasn't happy about that at all. He told me he was going to beat your daddy with a 2x4 lol. At the time of finding out we would be expecting you, we were living in your second cousin Andy's house in McDonough. (Hopefully by the time you can read and understand this, we will be living in Blue Ridge!). Your daddy works full time at Millard Refridgeration Warehouse. He works from 2pm to really late :/ Three days before I found out about you, I had started a new job at a BBQ place in Hapeville called Hambones. It didn't last long, considering you caused me to have extremely bad morning sickness! But I still love you very very much! :p

On Septermber 2, 2013 your daddy and I hopped on his motorcycle (our only transportation at the time) and headed up to Blue Ridge to stay the night with your daddy's mom. He hasn't decided what you will call her yet lol. The next morning, Daddy and I headed to Fannin County Courthouse to get our marriage license! We were so incredibly excited to make our family whole.

Well, that's all the big news I have to document for now. You're currently giving me "morning" sickness, which actually isn't just in the mornings lol. I feel sick 24/7. So I'm going to go eat something to make me feel better :)

Abandoned

It has been way too long since I've updated this blog. I've wanted to update for a while, but I just can't find the time or the desire to sit down and write about everything that's been going on. Most of it is stuff I'd rather not remember, but everything in life happens for a reason. I truly believe that. So I guess it's worth documenting in some small way at least. I love looking back on this blog and seeing where I was and what I was doing at different points in my life. So I guess I will just write everything that I've been needing to.

In my last post I mentioned that I decided on going to Georgia Southern. I was accepted and after thinking on it for a whole, I decided that I should go to school for a better job than publishing. I don't think I would make a very good living doing that unless I lived in a city somewhere. I definitely didn't want to uproot my life to go off to a big city, so I decided to go for teaching. I wanted to be a middle school teacher. I was accepted and everything was going fine. I had bought all the stuff I needed for my dorm and was ready to go. A week before I left I got a call saying my financial aid wasn't enough to cover the cost of that school and I would need about $10.000 more per semester. Of course I couldn't afford that so I wasn't able to go. So as of now, I've decided to just become an ultrasound technician and start school for that in the fall.

I'm happy say that Ronnie and I are still together and he is still as amazing as I thought he was on day  1. We are actually planning on moving in together in 3 weeks when he graduates. I've been saving a lot lately and hopefully I'll be able to get a car soon. That would honestly be the icing on the cake for me!

Some not so good news is that my grandfather died yesterday morning. Papa Charlie passed away in his sleep. That's all we know as of right now. Hopefully we will know more soon.

quickie

In my last post, I wrote about how I was making decisions regarding college and my future. I'm pleased to report that I've chosen to go to Georgia Southern and will be majoring in Writing and Linguistics. I never really had a passion for anything else besides reading and writing. I think Publishing will be a great career path for me and I'm so excited to start learning.

To make things even better, Ronnie might be coming down to Southern once he graduates the program. That would be an absolute dream come true for me. It's honestly very weird, me and him. After Austin and Brandon, my life was very weird and dark. I never thought I would find someone that I actually love, let alone the next year! It's crazy. He's everything I want. It's unreal how the same month I told myself, "You're never going to be in love, because what you want is too unrealistic," I met Ronnie. And he's everything and more. I know if I can find my "perfect guy", then anyone can. It's a miracle lol.

time flies

Has it really been almost 3 months since my last post? It doesn't feel like it. I've had the hardest time recently trying to gain access to all my accounts. Apparently someone was trying to hack my accounts and got everything frozen. Of course, I made them all about 4 years ago when I was starting high school and wrote dumb answers for all my recovery stuff. That was such a hassle trying to remember everything I wrote.

As for stuff that actually matters; I've been looking into college and getting everything together to go! I think I've decided that I want to go to Georgia Southern. At first, I was really interested in NGCSU, but when I went to visit, it just didn't seem like a place I would enjoy to the fullest. I'm going to visit Southern on Saturday and take a campus tour :) I'm thinking I am going to really love it.

I have to send in my applications for both places tonight and I am SOOO nervous! Also, my SAT scores will be ready to view in the morning. I'm honestly terrified of what they're going to be. I know that regardless of what they are, though, that everything is going to work out. There is a positive side to each outcome (even the negative one)!

hair and other stuff

This isn't anything important so don't pay any attention to it. I just wanted to make a post that I'm going to be growing my hair out. I not only want it to be waist length, but I want it to be thick and healthy.

She'll stay awake forever so she don't have to face the demons
Of her subconscious mind, but she lies, she says everything is fine
Cause she has to keep up the front of a fighter
Even as the night turns brighter, as the sun takes it place
All emotion gone from her porcelain face
When did it start, her tragic fall from grace

Cause daddy never was home, he was gypsy kind of man
And momma never showed affection, never was her biggest fan