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Untitledfeb 13 2008I'm not worth your tears,
I'm not committed to the years.
I want something more,
Does that make me a whore?

You can't see into my eyes,
and I can't see past your disguise.
I can't tell the truth from lies,
anymore.

I thought you were worth more than that,
Until all the harsh words you spat.
Now looking at you,
I seem to have nothing to lose.

Let go at hellomarch 28 2009

You taught me so much about myself,
that I started to trust you more and more.
All you do was show me the door.

I thought you cared about me more than anything,
you said you needed me.
That's not true, I see.

I gave you everything I had to give now,
and wanted to give you so much more.
Our conversations I did adore.

I was silly to think it would last,
and I suppose that was my fault.
I let you in my head, my closed vault.

I wasn't good enough for you, I know.
I should have just let go at hello.

JLHjan 9 2010
I am sick to my stomach
and I am breaking down.
I can feel your footsteps,
through vibrations on the ground.

I can feel the cold sidewalk,
pressed against my cheek.
I never knew it was possible,
to feel so completely weak.

I feel your hands around my waist,
and I cringe at your touch.
My body is now shaking,
as the ground I try to clutch.

Now you have me off the ground,
and I can see your lovely face.
You're holding me in your arms,
and I feel so out of place.

I hate it when you save me,
because I don't deserve you.
You should just be happy,
but I know you will argue.

You think that I deserve you,
that I could be the one.
But I am telling you no,
your heart I haven't won.