oh, nostalgia

I don't know why, but it seems like this past week has been very hard on me regarding my grandma. It seems like every night I get really sad and don't really know what to do other than listen to music that makes me cry. I want to talk to her so much it hurts. I just want to hear her voice and ask her for advice. It feels like there is no hope in anything anymore.

Brandon and I also split this week. It was alright at first, but then he basically went crazy for no reason and called me relentlessly. All day every day. I eventually had to get my dad involved and my dad told Brandon that the police would be involved if he didn't stop.

I've been thinking about college and my future a lot more now and I've decided I want to go away for college. I need to be away from home, but I don't want to leave on bad terms or ruin my life by leaving. I feel the best way to get out is to go to college and do something with my life.