ups and downs

I'm so happy that these past few days I've been working really hard learning a song on the keyboard. I know mostly all of the chords and notes, I'm just practicing on my timing right now. This is the song I'm learning:

The next video is of me playing what I know so far. It isn't really good, but I'm proud of what I've accomplished in the past three days.

 

 Aside from that, I'm happy that my birthday is less than four months away. I can't wait until I'm out of this hell. My dad makes my life a living hell on a daily basis. I'm 17 and I don't have a single friend. I've developed social anxiety due to him keeping me locked away in this house. I think kids my age should be allowed out of the house and to have social lives. Instead, he tells me I'm not allowed to hang out with anyone because my boyfriend 'screens' my friends and 'controls who I can be friends with'. Which, he doesn't. The only person who does ignorant stuff like that is my dad. It gets to the point where when you have to constantly say 'No, I'm sorry. My dad won't let me', people just quit asking. I'd love to complain so much more about this, but it's making me ten times more bitter and I don't think anyone else really care to hear me whine.