some random poetry

The chances that I'm taking
Scare me half to death.
All the love we're making
Causes pain within my chest.
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How is she to feel
When nothing's ever real
When it all falls to shit
Then comes another hit
Sorrow drowns her mind
Cause no ones ever kind
And she has been alone
The entire time she's grown

She never had a chance
To have faith in romance
She stays at a distance
Hating her existence 

If lights will guide me home, then I'll always search for your eyes.
The fire that burns in you is where my home lies.

2012

So I guess I haven't done the best job of keeping this updated. I have been making videos more often though. At least I will have that to reflect on over the years. 2011 ended pretty quickly I guess. I've been 18 for about a week and a half already. It really doesn't feel like it's been that long. (Still can't believe I even made it to 18, to be honest....)

A lot has happened this past week. Dad kicked me out and turned my phone off. I'm currently staying with my mom and she ordered me a phone from T-mobile. I feel so bad that she did that because of the financial situation she is in. I applied for jobs and I'm about to do that online as well. I just hate applying for jobs knowing I have no car (therefore no way of getting to the interviews or jobs).

Today Evan picked me up and he took me to my school to register and then we went and applied for jobs. Despite a lot of the bullshit that goes on between him and I, he is a really good friend. I am thankful to have someone who is so willing to help me all the time.

Another lost soul

The void I feel
Is so unreal
No rhyme or reason
It comes like seaons
An endless fight
I never feel right
I want to break free
I don't want to be me
Who am I today?
I have nothing to say
For I do not know
I have nothing to show
Just another lost soul
That will never be whole