you're all the same

I find it funny how when things don't work out with a guy, there is always the one who tries to swoop in and be the man on the white horse. The effect works for a while, because the girl is in such a "damsel in distress" position. I really hate how a guy will put in so much effort to look so amazing for the first little while, but then he turns out to be just as bad as the guy he was trying to save you from.

A little note to all you shit head men; WOMEN ARE FRAGILE. Don't lead us on and make us rely on you and then act all offended if we're too 'clingy' or were too 'emotional'. YOU FUCKS ARE THE ONES WHO MADE US THIS WAY.

You don't deserve any women if you're just going to lead her on, make her fall for you, and then crush her heart.

oh, nostalgia

I don't know why, but it seems like this past week has been very hard on me regarding my grandma. It seems like every night I get really sad and don't really know what to do other than listen to music that makes me cry. I want to talk to her so much it hurts. I just want to hear her voice and ask her for advice. It feels like there is no hope in anything anymore.

Brandon and I also split this week. It was alright at first, but then he basically went crazy for no reason and called me relentlessly. All day every day. I eventually had to get my dad involved and my dad told Brandon that the police would be involved if he didn't stop.

I've been thinking about college and my future a lot more now and I've decided I want to go away for college. I need to be away from home, but I don't want to leave on bad terms or ruin my life by leaving. I feel the best way to get out is to go to college and do something with my life.