ignorance is your best friend

One thing I cannot stand about a person is when they put themselves in a position they do not belong in. Especially when they put themselves there and try to make decisions that are not theirs to make. It really blows my mind how completely disrespectful and oblivious some people are. And the worst part of it all, is when they get knocked back to their place, they want to get mad and be offended. You're not a victim if you were wrong to begin with.

Another thing that really irks me is when people blatantly just do not care about other people. For example, a friend of mine went to Air Force Basic the other day. All of her friends commented on the status her dad posted of her address (so we can send letters). They were talking about how they were going to write pages and pages each. I told them not to do that, because she gets an hour a day to read and reply to all the letters - if that. Then someone else commented right when I said that talking about how he was going to 'write an essay' to her. It's rude. You're not the only person who wants to write her. Get over yourself.

always behind

I was so happy at the start of this school year because I thought I would actually graduate. Now as it turns on, I've fallen behind in every single class except for American Government. I'm trying so hard to catch up, but once I sit in the same spot staring at textbooks for 4 hours straight it gets a tad bit (sarcasm noted) boring. Especially American Literature. They expect me to analyze a poem that literally has two sentences. Probably no more than 15 words. I don't understand how I'm supposed to pick multiple themes from such a short poem. They are also asking that I explain how this challenges the biblical references and yada yada. I don't even read the bible!

As far as Algebra is concerned, I've basically abandoned all hope. I'm steadily working on Spanish 2; It isn't hard. There is just so much work that has to be done when it comes to Spanish. I'm trying to get my grades up so that when I take the midterms in 3 weeks my grades will be high enough that if I do fail the tests, I can still pass the class.

That probably isn't the best way to go about things, but at least I'm getting my work and actually trying to pass the class. I just really want to graduate with my class even if I'm not at the school I wish I could be at.

ups and downs

I'm so happy that these past few days I've been working really hard learning a song on the keyboard. I know mostly all of the chords and notes, I'm just practicing on my timing right now. This is the song I'm learning:

The next video is of me playing what I know so far. It isn't really good, but I'm proud of what I've accomplished in the past three days.

 

 Aside from that, I'm happy that my birthday is less than four months away. I can't wait until I'm out of this hell. My dad makes my life a living hell on a daily basis. I'm 17 and I don't have a single friend. I've developed social anxiety due to him keeping me locked away in this house. I think kids my age should be allowed out of the house and to have social lives. Instead, he tells me I'm not allowed to hang out with anyone because my boyfriend 'screens' my friends and 'controls who I can be friends with'. Which, he doesn't. The only person who does ignorant stuff like that is my dad. It gets to the point where when you have to constantly say 'No, I'm sorry. My dad won't let me', people just quit asking. I'd love to complain so much more about this, but it's making me ten times more bitter and I don't think anyone else really care to hear me whine.