I figured I would update seeing as how it's been a full 10 days. This particular picture doesn't have any significance to my post. It was taken the same day I wrote about in my last entry (the day that Scarlett came to Brandon's). I just love this picture so much. Scarlett is so adorable. She looks just like her daddy. She has the same colored eyes resting in the same squinted shape as his do. She has the same cute, wide nose. Her ears stick out the same ways his do and her mouth forms the same little curves as his. Her bottom lip is even slightly bigger, just as his is. I wish I could cuddle her forever and always.
The only really eventful things that have happened in these past ten days are when Brandon and I so much work for my dad. Brandon made $200 at the end of the week. Of course, I didn't make a dime. My dad feels that since I live at home I don't deserve to be paid. Even though he doesn't do much of anything for me. It's quite unfair, but I can't do much about it except complain and that's useless. Only 152 days until I can escape this place! He still hasn't even taken me to enroll in school, which starts next week. And he wonders why I'm constantly behind?
I also started using Swaptree again. I absolutely love that site. I'm planning on getting the entire Harry Potter series from there by trading off books I don't read anymore. I've already traded for a really nice hard cover copy of the first book. I already have the 4th and 5th book in paperback. I really want all the hard cover copies, so I may trade them off for hard copies. I'm very picky with books for some reason. I love hard cover copies.
Other than that, the only interesting thing going on is my dad is going off the deep end. Adding to anxiety, depression, high blood pressure and other stuff my dad is now adding bipolar to his list of health problems. It stresses me out so much because he treats me like crap constantly and can never be nice to me. Not even for a single minute. And it makes me so mad and him and really feel like I hate him. But how are you supposed to feel that way about someone who could literally drop dead at any second? It's so baffling and it's such a tug a pull feeling in me. If I don't get pissed off at him, I feel like I have no self respect and like I'm letting someone walk all over me. I feel as if I have no backbone and I'm being taken advantage of. But when I get pushy with him or stick up for myself or talk to him negatively I feel bad. If he were to pass away anytime soon, I wouldn't want those memories to be the last ones. But how do you get through to someone like this? I just can't figure it out and it's driving me completely mad not knowing how to feel or what to do.
Oh blog, how I've missed you so. As I wrote on my twitter the other day, my fingers have been itching to blog. I actually have quite a bit to write about. I'm not sure if it will all fit into one post; I may have to make a two part entry.
I guess a good place to start will be about my keyboard. About a week ago I ordered a keyboard from Walmart and it FINALLY came yesterday morning. I've already learned Twinkle Twinkle Little Star and the main chords for the song 'Who Am I to Say' by Hope. It's the song I'm going to play with Sara before she leaves to go to the air force. I am so extremely excited to finally be learning to play the piano. I've been wanting to learn for years now, but I lacked the motivation. I actually have a goal set now. I'm going to try to learn the basics before my birthday in December, because when I move out Brandon and I are going to form a metal band. I'm actually very excited about it.
As for this past week, I spent Wednesday - Friday at my mom's house. My sister Emily and I went to the midnight premier of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows part 2. It was lots of fun, but also sad. It's basically the end of an amazing era and a huge part in my life. I'm happy I got to spend some time with my little brother and sister. I don't get to see them very often and I feel like I'm missing everything in their lives. My baby brother isn't much of a baby anymore. He's so smart and he thinks independently. I was shocked. But I guess that's what happens when you don't see someone for a couple month's at a time. Once I move out and I have a car, I'm going to try to go visit them at least once a week.
Today was amazing, as it's the first day in seven months that Brandon saw his daughter Scarlett. She is absolutely beautiful and she looks just like him. As of right now, her favorite toy is the singing cow and the singing seahorse. She loves the pears and cinnamon baby food and isn't quite fond of baby cereal. She is very mellow for an infant and hardly cried at all today. She got fussy for all of 30 seconds and Brandon gave her the pacifier. As soon as it was in her mouth, she fell completely asleep - right in his arms. It was so amazing seeing him be a father. To see him be apart of his child's life after seven months of having to fight for her.
These past few days have actually been nice for the most part. It's been a little differnent because for once, I honestly have been too busy to blog. There isn't a whole lot to catch up on, but there are a few things I wanted to document.
As for my last blog post, I never wrote the outcome! Brandon ended up winning joint custody of his daughter. He won the same rights as Meghan (the baby's mother). We were so happy; It's been almost 7 months since he's even seen her! The lawyer's office was closed for the holiday weekend, but they should have a visitation plan worked out sometime this week. If everything goes well, Brandon will be able to have his daughter this weekend! I am so excited. I absolutely can't wait!
As for the rest of the weekend, I spent it in Panama City Beach, Florida. It was an alright trip, nothing too special. I spent my first day there on the beach with Kayleigh (my dad's friend). She is really cool; She's only 22. So we're not too far apart in age. We drank Bud Light Lime on the beach all day. It was pretty fun.
I figured I would update seeing as how it's been a full 10 days. This particular picture doesn't have any significance to my post. It was taken the same day I wrote about in my last entry (the day that Scarlett came to Brandon's). I just love this picture so much. Scarlett is so adorable. She looks just like her daddy. She has the same colored eyes resting in the same squinted shape as his do. She has the same cute, wide nose. Her ears stick out the same ways his do and her mouth forms the same little curves as his. Her bottom lip is even slightly bigger, just as his is. I wish I could cuddle her forever and always.
